Mr. J, a Former Professor Series – Entry 10: Anatomy of Disappointment
The Echo of the Man Who Failed Every Role He Claimed
This isn’t a forensic piece. This isn’t the entry I planned.
This is a reckoning — and if you’ve followed this series and wondered: “Why does she go this far?” — this might be the closest thing to an answer I can give.
This entry wasn’t in my plan.
Today, I was supposed to publish a critical analysis — one of the 10 pre-written entries in my outline. It’s not hard for me to finish, but I just can’t bring myself to do it today.
I’m not in the mood for structure or critique.
I think I’ve never truly spoken my raw thoughts about this entire situation.
So today, I will write them down. And maybe, just maybe, it will answer the question:
“Who is she, and what made her write all this?”
Note on Naming:
The subject is named due to the seriousness of the documented threats and sustained misconduct.
Naming is not intended to humiliate, but to reflect the weight of what occurred — and to preserve the truth of what followed.
While a public response has been made, it has not addressed the core evidence.
Visibility remains necessary.
This reflection is shared in good faith, grounded in first-hand experience, and supported by formal documentation already submitted to QPS, TEQSA, and ACSC.
The very first time I started managing this case — somewhere around March — I could still hold my emotions together.
But I lost track of time.
Day and night became the same.
I stopped functioning physically. I focused entirely on getting this done.
Breakfast, lunch, and dinner became one — if I remembered to eat at all.
I barely left the house.
And when I did, after staying in all week, I sat down in public and thought:
What would I be doing if I didn’t have to deal with this?
I’m still in the middle of the Common Law course at Yale on Coursera.
I should have been there, writing down terms carefully, comparing common law and civil law, questioning minor shifts in legal language.
I should’ve been doing what I loved — medical learning — or working, saving for my future.
I missed a major party at work.
I missed good music.
I missed the food.
I missed seeing my colleagues from departments I rarely meet.
I missed my real life — because of this.
Some people asked:
“Why don’t you just block him?”
The last time he insulted me privately, I could’ve left.
But I forgave him.
The very next day, he insulted my parents. That was the last straw.
Luckily, both my parents understand legal structures well.
So when he tried to harass them — pushing them to make me return the money he once gave me as a “compensation gift” — they didn’t fall for it.
My parents never trusted a 56-year-old man trying to date me long-term.
So they weren’t surprised when he broke up with me first — and then harassed my mother for weeks, begging her to get me to talk to him.
He even dragged his 15-year-old daughter into this.
He tried to make her pressure me to return the money.
And then — as if that excused anything — he blamed it all on mental health, grief, his dead friend Stuart.
Sorry, but no.
That doesn’t work after months of harassment, extortion, and guilt-tripping texts.
We know the game.
The respondent used the term ‘theft’ and ‘extortion’ to describe a financial transfer that was never formalized as a loan or contractual agreement. This accusation was made to my parents and with the intention to shame, coerce, and damage my character — which I believe constitutes defamation and harassment.
After sending defamatory and threatening messages to my mother, the respondent reversed tone within hours and presented himself as a grieving, mentally distressed individual — a shift in emotional framing commonly used to deflect accountability and avoid legal consequence.
Received 20-21 March 2025 - Day 15-16 of Documented Harassment
See the full public evidence available here.
And he threatened the wrong people in my family.
He threatened people who never trusted him from day one.
He threatened people who make and apply the law — but were just polite to him.
Because if this were in Australia, or if he came here, this wouldn’t just end in metrics.
And luckily, we’re not under the same jurisdiction.
He threatened the kind of people who ask me:
“Do you want to talk to my lawyer?”
And I said:
“No, mom. Not yet.”
He threatened people who would wait for him at their workplace — with police — if he ever dared to send that letter he threatened.
And if he truly believed that my parents — his age — would side with a man who drags our whole family into a mess just because he can’t control their daughter anymore,
then I truly wonder what kind of logic he lives by.
I stopped fighting for him long ago.
He never defended himself when I told him my friends doubted him.
He didn’t care.
But after the breakup — after being told to stop contacting — he kept messaging me and my mom:
“Did she ever care about me?”
“Did she ever love me?”
“She won’t answer me…”
And I won’t.
Because I’ve already answered that a thousand times — and I don’t owe anyone an answer anymore.
Received: 21 March 2025 - Day 16 of Documented Harassment
See the full public evidence available here.
He tried to publish revenge porn — dressed up as literature.
He tried to erase my identity — remove all traces of our relationship — and still use me as his material.
He even told my mother that he planned to publish it.
So I moved on.
Received: 16-24 April 2025, Day 42-50 of Documented Harassment
See the full poems here.
See the full public evidence available here.
My friends had warned me:
“Are you sure he’s a professor?”
“Are you sure he’s retired, not fired?”
“Give me his uni email. I’ll check.”
“Careful — a lot of failed white men go to Asia to rewrite their past through young women.”
“You lowered your standard being with him.”
How did they all see it so clearly — and I didn’t?
It wasn’t just with me.
Even his daughter sounded hesitant, distant on the phone.
She stopped talking to him. So did his son.
No matter how many calls or emails — even to school emails — they didn’t answer.
It was… strange.
Does he even respect his children’s peace?
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There was a moment where he sent me a photo of his newborn children — fully unclothed — without warning, without me asking. I had never met them.
Like much of what he did, it assumed closeness that was never earned, permission that was never granted.
It felt intrusive. I didn’t know how to respond — not because the children,
but the frame I didn’t choose.
—
When someone says “maybe they’ll only speak to me if I die,”
they didn’t reach out to be heard.
They reached out to be pitied.
They didn’t want to rebuild the bridge.
They wanted someone else to carry them across it —
without asking why the bridge broke in the first place.
He mocked his students for saying his voice was boring.
Instead of improving, he made a passive-aggressive slide:
“This is where I’m from — that’s why my voice sounds like this.”
I told him once — jokingly — that my students would like me more than him.
I teach with body language, expression, storytelling.
I make lectures feel like conversations.
And his reply?
“They’re gonna be racist to you because you’re Asian.”
And everything shifted.
Because suddenly, my capability didn’t matter. My race did.
And this came from the man who claimed he was once racially discriminated against in Australia — for being British.
Sorry — I get racism too.
Even in my own country.
But I still believe in what I can do.
And he didn’t.
So I chose to leave.
Received: December 31, 2024
The first day I documented his harassment, I only wanted one thing:
A TPO or FPO to protect myself — like the one his ex had.
But that wasn’t so simple.
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And now?
I’ve got a case ID.
From Australian police.
While I live outside of Australia.
Yesterday, it was me he harassed for 70+ days.
Today, it’s my parents.
Tomorrow? My friends? My workplace?
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That’s why I act.
That’s why I write.
That’s why I refuse to stop.
People ask: Why go this far?
Why report to police?
Why write all this?
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So when?
Shall I wait until he ruins my job?
Shall I wait until my study gets sabotaged in Australia?
Shall I wait until he messages my colleagues, destroys my dignity?
And only then report?
If my reputation is gone — what’s the point of a report?
What will jail time fix?
Who restores my name?
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You ask why I go this far?
There were days I asked myself that too.
There were moments I felt… guilty.
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Guilty for staying calm, for documenting it so well —
as if that meant I wasn’t hurting.
Guilty for even thinking — just for a second —
whether this series could be monetized, could become something bigger than just pain.
Guilty for wondering, quietly, if this writing might one day reach further —
maybe even be worth something.
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But then I realized:
This isn’t about commercializing pain.
This isn’t about turning pain into profit.
This is about reclaiming the narrative — before someone else weaponizes it again.
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I don’t know what impact this will have.
Maybe no one will ever say thank you.
Maybe this changes nothing.
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I don’t know how far this will go.
I don’t know who will read it — or if it will ever be “enough.”
But if even one person finds this and feels less alone,
If someone reads this and whispers:
“I’m not the only one. I’m not crazy.”
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Then this pain wasn’t wasted.
Maybe it found its purpose.
And maybe — after all of it — I get to decide what stays.
And what ends with me.
And I don’t want anyone else to learn that lesson the way I did.
Because I’ve already seen what happens when you wait.
To people who are carrying the disappointment. I know how heavy it ií
Update (June 10, 2025): Counter-Takedown Filed — Fair Use & Survivor-Led Documentation
On June 9, I received a formal DMCA notice from Google informing me that Patrick Johnston had submitted a copyright takedown request targeting my publicly accessible survivor evidence folders documentation already submitted to QPS as part of police evidence.
This content, previously submitted to law enforcement in the context of unwanted contact and coercive behavior, cannot retroactively be reframed as protected intellectual property for the purpose of silencing survivor documentation.
Any takedown request targeting such material constitutes a strategic misuse of copyright law, not a legitimate rights claim.
These files were published strictly under academic Fair Use and Fair Dealing protections, as part of an ethics-based documentation series. This takedown is not a valid copyright dispute, but a coercive response to institutional criticism.
Attempts to assert copyright over police-submitted evidence constitute a serious ethical and potentially legal breach. Such actions may be interpreted as obstruction of justice and retaliation against protected reporting
This is not copyright protection. This is reputational panic, disguised as a takedown notice.
The content was non-commercial, already submitted to Queensland Police (QPS) and regulators under official case IDs. Its removal constitutes an attempt to suppress documented harms rather than enforce legitimate rights. Misusing copyright mechanisms in this manner may qualify as a form of strategic litigation against public participation (SLAPP).
My publication falls squarely within the thresholds of:
Australian Copyright Act 1968 – Sections 41 & 42 (Fair Dealing)
U.S. Copyright Law – §107 (Fair Use)
International norms protecting public interest commentary and trauma documentation.
I have submitted a formal counter-notice. As per standard procedure, Google has forwarded the takedown request to the Lumen Database, where it is now publicly visible as part of platform transparency archives.
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If harassment persists, I reserve the right to escalate this matter to ethics boards, international legal monitors, and public interest watchdogs tracking strategic censorship and retaliatory misuse of institutional tools.
Any misuse of personal information obtained via counter-notice or takedown responses will be treated as further coercive harassment and may be reported to law enforcement under digital harm and privacy abuse frameworks.
No individual has the right to suppress survivor-led documentation solely on the basis of personal discomfort — especially when such material pertains to evidence already submitted to law enforcement.
Read the full series
- Entry 1: The Man Who Taught Me Ethics by Failing All of Them
- Entry 2: The Disappearance of the Public Poet
- Entry 3: The Hanging Tree Case Study
- Entry 4: Hidden Like Accountability
- Entry 5: The Collapse of Assumptions
- Entry 6: The Ethics of a Tinder Bio
- Entry 7: How He Ate Told Me Everything
- Entry 8: What Makes a Scholar Dangerous
- Entry 9: Fragment of Life, Fragment of Accountability
- Entry 10: Anatomy of Disappointment (you are here)
- Entry 11: Legal Defense Challenges: A Framing Statement
- Entry 12: Six Years After Ronell – What Academia Still Doesn’t Get
- Entry 13: QUT and The Man Who Raped Me
- Entry 14: Why Sarcasm Toward Institutions Can Backfire
- Entry 15: P*ssy or Toxic Masculinity?
- Entry 16: Who is Your Favorite Comedian?
- Entry 17: And What is Your Favorite Song?
- Entry 18: Grant Proposal — Narrative Ethics as Survivor-Led Forensics
- Entry 19: The Coward Behind the Clone
- Entry 20: [URGENT HIRE] CRISIS COMMUNICATIONS SPECIALIST
- Entry 21: [URGENT] Legal Counsel Needed for Complex Reputation Rehabilitation
- Entry 22: YOU’RE AN ABUSER. STOP CONTACTING ME
- Entry 23: Seeking Counsel for a Fallen Academic
- Entry 24: Internal Legal-PR Briefing
- Entry 25: For Journalists – Legal & Ethical Clearance Summary
- Entry 26: Symbolic Prostitution, Transactional Intimacy, or Just a “Loan”?
- Entry 28: Why He Simply Cannot Shut Up
- Entry 29: Forensic Commentary on “LARGE Language Muddle”
- Entry 30: Don’t Just Threaten My Future. Because I’m Going To Archive Your Present
- Entry 31: Open Letter to the Person Who Tried to Break Me with Defamation
- Entry 32: Defamation, Harassment, Doxxing Class 101
- Entry 33: Confidential Crisis Recovery Proposal
- Entry 34: Forensic Behavioral-Somatic Report
- Entry 35: Forensic Commentary on the Tattoos
- Entry 36: QUT and the Abuser They Once Had
- Entry 38: When Poetry Becomes Revenge Porn
- Entry 40: A Man Built for Applause, Not Accountability
- Entry 41: Neurobehavioral Addendum
- Entry 43: Why Does It Sound Like a War Metaphor?
- Entry 44: Forensic Commentary on Racialized and Fetishizing Language in “Hidden Like Rice”
- Entry 45: Public Misuse of Former Academic Affiliation
- Entry 46: The Two Things That Didn’t Leave a Bad Impression
- Entry 47: When Affection is Just an Alibi (A Bundy-Inspired Reflection)
- Entry 48: Humbert, Lolita, and the Fetish of Fragility
- Entry 49: The Fetish of Smallness as Symbolic Violence
- Entry 50: Motif Risk Analysis
- Entry 52: Can an Abuser Be a Good Father?
- Entry 53: Who Protects the Children?
- Entry 54: From Blackmail to Children
- Entry 55: A Letter I’ll Never Send
- Entry 56: Outc(L)assed - Critical Race Analysis
- Entry 57: Forensic Breakdown: “A Voidance” by Johnston
- Entry 58: Johnston, Who Raised You?
- Entry 59: Public Financial Terms & Narrative Conditions
- Entry 60: What Kind of Future Do You Think Awaits You?
- Entry 61: Why I Believe He Has No Real PR or Legal Team
- Entry 62: Why I Can Legally (and Ethically) Call You a Pathetic Pig
- Entry 63: Tell Me You’re a Pathetic Pig Without Telling Me You’re a Pathetic Pig
- Entry 65: Did Your Mother Teach You To Speak Like This?
- Entry 66: Nobody Cares Anyway
- Reflection: The Miscalculation
(More entries coming soon)
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