Mr. J, a Former Professor Series – Entry 17: And What is Your Favorite Song?
为何会两败俱伤
我嫌弃你的偏向
会让我觉得有点丧
避开你流露出的锋芒
别跟我斤斤计较
算旧账
A message sent to Johnston in February 2025 — outlining clear emotional boundaries and rejecting sexist or invalidating comments.
Personal phone number partially redacted for privacy; full documentation has been submitted to authorities.
No one never listens, this wallpaper glistens
Don't let them see what goes down in the kitchen
Places, places, get in your places
Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains
This message series shows a sustained pattern of coercive demands and emotional blackmail sent by Pat Johnston after the end of our relationship — including threats to contact my family and publicize distorted narratives unless money was paid.
Received: March 20, 2025 - Day 15 of documented harassment
Full evidence archive submitted to QPS, TEQSA, AHRC and Ethics Australia: View here.
Did you have to do this?
I was thinking that you could be trusted
Did you have to ruin
What was shiny? Now it's all rusted.
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Oh I can't believe what I'm hearing
You cross the line I can feel my blood overheating
And oh I'm loaded and about to blow like a timebomb
Ticking ticking timebomb ready to explode
Received: April 15, 2025 - Day 41 of documented harassment
If we had a daughter, I'd watch and could not save her
The emotional torture from the head of your high table
She'd do what you taught her
She'd meet the same cruel fate
So now I've gotta run, so I can undo this mistake
At least I've gotta try
QUT’s formal response to a complaint of harassment and unethical conduct by former psychology professor Patrick James Johnston (Pat Johnston)
God knows what is hiding in this world of little consequence
Behind the tears, inside the lies
A thousand slowly dying sunsets
God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts
Guess the loneliness came knocking
No one needs to be alone or sinking
People help the people
And if you're homesick, give me your hand and I'll hold it
People help the people
Nothing will drag you down
Oh, and if I had a brain, oh, and if I had a brain
I'd be cold as a stone and rich as the fool
That turned, all those good hearts away
Screenshot captured on April 25, 2025. The original post/account has since been deleted or made unavailable.
Are you, are you
Coming to the tree?
They strung up a man
They say who murdered three
Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
If we met at midnight in the hanging tree
Are you, are you
Coming to the tree?
Where dead man called out
For his love to flee
Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
If we met at midnight in the hanging tree
Are you, are you
Coming to the tree?
Wear a necklace of hope
Side by side with me
Strange things did happen here, no stranger would it be
If we met at midnight in the hanging tree
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Et soudain j’ai pris peur quand je les entendais me dire
Non, mais qu’est-ce que tu t’embêtes ? Tu t’prends la tête ?
Ce gars-là n’est pas net — et il est fauché.
Je suis sûr qu’il ne reflète pas vraiment ce qu’il est.
Ainsi bas la vida
Received: April 30, 2025 - Day 55 of documented harassment
Now I'm f*cked up and I'm missing you
I'm only human, can't you see?
I made, I made a mistake
Please just look me in my face
Tell me everything's okay
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You made a really deep cut
And now we got bad blood
Band-aids don't fix bullet holes
You say sorry just for show
If you live like that, you live with ghosts
Public Note published by Pat Johnston (captured May 16, 2025; archived prior to deletion)
Blood runs thicker than water
Blood runs thicker than water
Blood runs thicker than water
But both feel the same when your eyes are closed
I am the river's daughter
I am the river's daughter
I am the river's daughter
And you'll be her son when we're both reposed
— Chloe Ament, “The Water is Fine” (2022)
These lines, haunting and ambivalent, carry the same undercurrent of emotional surrender, symbolic entanglement, and irreversible descent found in Johnston’s metaphor. Whether meant as poetic mythology or private foreshadowing, both works invite uncomfortable proximity between intimacy and danger — where “love” may arrive cloaked as sickness, and still call itself safe.
Received: April 23, 2025 - Day 49 of documented harassment
I'm not an angel, I'm not a saint
Look, it's a new me
Switched it up, who's this?
Received: April 30, 2025 - Day 55 of documented harassment
一阴一阳之谓道 紫气东来
明码标价的那些物 非黑即白
若上颁奖台切莫 张灯结彩
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All up in your fridge, can't pay rent
****** ain't sh*t, come up in your crib
Logical thinkin' is just something that you lack, so
What you even mad for?
Received: April 25, 2025 - Day 51 of documented harassment
Ten-page text, shoulda' wrote a book
Coulda' made a bag, but he broke
And he still waitin' 'til I can chill
And he really think I'ma get back to him
Doin' too much, relax a bit
Must be the way that the planet is
Left on read and can't give head
Baby, you ain't sh**, eat a laxative
Public Note published by Pat Johnston (captured June 10 and June 14, 2025; archived prior to deletion)
She said, "Hola, ¿cómo está'?"
She said, "こんにちは"
She said, "Pardon my French"
I said, "Bonjour, madame"
Then she said, "Sak pasé?"
And I said, "N'ap boule"
No matter where I go, you know I love 'em all
Public Post published by Pat Johnston (captured June 29, 2025; archived prior to deletion)
So many girls in here, where do I begin?
I seen this one, I'm 'bout to go in
Then she said, I'm here with my friends
She got me thinking and that's when I said
Where them girls at, girls at?
Where them girls at, girls at?
Where them girls at, girls at?
So go get them, we can all be friends
Public Note published by Pat Johnston (captured June 7, 2025; archived prior to deletion)
Actin' on your worst behavior
Turn your back on mother nature
Everybody wants to rule the world
Speaking to me is a privilege
You do not. Have. Privileges
Na-na-na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Na-na-na, diva is a female version of a hustla
Of a hustla, of a, of a hustla
Screenshot captured on June 18, 2025
Ah don’t you know, pump it up
You’ve got to pump it up
Don’t you know, pump it up
You’ve got to pump it up
Don’t you know, pump it up
You’ve got to pump it up
Don’t you know, pump it up
You’ve got to pump it up
Throw your hands in the air, lift your head up high
You know you've got to sing along
Public Note published by Pat Johnston (captured June 16, 2025; archived prior to deletion)
Fein', fein', fein', fein'-fein'
Fein', fein', fein', fein'-fein'
Fein', fein', fein', fein'-fein'
Fein', fein', fein', fein', fein'
Fein', fein', fein'
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Yeah, b*tch, I said what I said
I'd rather be famous instead
I let all that get to my head
I don't care, I paint the town red
Screenshot captured on June 18, 2025
I'm about to party on you
Watch me, watch me party on you
Quoted lyrics from the following songs:
– 《两败俱伤》 by G.E.M.邓紫棋
– “Dollhouse” by Melanie Maảtinez
- “Bad Blood” by Kendrick Lamar and Taylor Swift
– “Timebomb” by Laidback Luke
– “labour” by Paris Paloma
- “People Help the People” by Birdy
- “The Hanging Tree” by James Newton Howard & Jennifer Lawrence
– “Ainsi bas la vida” by Indila
– “Never Be Like You” by Flume
– “The Water is Fine” by Chloe Ament
– “Walk Thru Fire” by Vicetone
– “New Jeans” by NewJeans
- “八方來財(Stacks from All Sides)” by 攬佬SKAI ISYOURGOD
– “Ain’t Shit” by Doja Cat
– “Don’t Mind” by Kent Jones
– “Where Them Girls At” by David Guetta
– Mashup of lyrics from Kanye West’s “Black Skinhead” and Tears for Fears’ “Everybody Wants to Rule the World”
– “Speaking to me is a privilege. You do not have privileges” — Originally from Scandal, popularized through TikTok culture
– “Diva” by Beyoncé
– “Pump It Up” by Danko
– “Paint The Town Red Song” by Doja Cat
– “FE!N” by Travis Scott
– “party 4 u” by Charli xcx
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Disclaimer on Lyrics Usage
The lyrics quoted throughout this piece are excerpts from various published songs. They are used here under fair use principles for purposes of cultural commentary, narrative critique, and symbolic reflection.
All rights belong to the original songwriters and copyright holders. No commercial use intended.
Photo cover by Raph_PH on Flickr
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Doja Cat at The O2, June 14, 2024
Read the full series
- Entry 1: The Man Who Taught Me Ethics by Failing All of Them
- Entry 2: The Disappearance of the Public Poet
- Entry 3: The Hanging Tree Case Study
- Entry 4: Hidden Like Accountability
- Entry 5: The Collapse of Assumptions
- Entry 6: The Ethics of a Tinder Bio
- Entry 7: How He Ate Told Me Everything
- Entry 8: What Makes a Scholar Dangerous
- Entry 9: Fragment of Life, Fragment of Accountability
- Entry 10: Anatomy of Disappointment
- Entry 11: Legal Defense Challenges: A Framing Statement
- Entry 12: Six Years After Ronell – What Academia Still Doesn’t Get
- Entry 13: QUT and The Man Who Raped Me
- Entry 14: Why Sarcasm Toward Institutions Can Backfire
- Entry 15: P*ssy or Toxic Masculinity?
- Entry 16: Who is Your Favorite Comedian?
- Entry 17: And What is Your Favorite Song? (You are here)
- Entry 18: Grant Proposal — Narrative Ethics as Survivor-Led Forensics
- Entry 19: The Coward Behind the Clone
- Entry 20: [URGENT HIRE] CRISIS COMMUNICATIONS SPECIALIST
- Entry 21: [URGENT] Legal Counsel Needed for Complex Reputation Rehabilitation
- Entry 22: YOU’RE AN ABUSER. STOP CONTACTING ME
- Entry 23: Seeking Counsel for a Fallen Academic
- Entry 24: Internal Legal-PR Briefing
- Entry 25: For Journalists – Legal & Ethical Clearance Summary
- Entry 26: Symbolic Prostitution, Transactional Intimacy, or Just a “Loan”?
- Entry 28: Why He Simply Cannot Shut Up
- Entry 29: Forensic Commentary on “LARGE Language Muddle”
- Entry 30: Don’t Just Threaten My Future. Because I’m Going To Archive Your Present
- Entry 31: Open Letter to the Person Who Tried to Break Me with Defamation
- Entry 32: Defamation, Harassment, Doxxing Class 101
- Entry 33: Confidential Crisis Recovery Proposal
- Entry 34: Forensic Behavioral-Somatic Report
- Entry 35: Forensic Commentary on the Tattoos
- Entry 36: QUT and the Abuser They Once Had
- Entry 38: When Poetry Becomes Revenge Porn
- Entry 40: A Man Built for Applause, Not Accountability
- Entry 41: Neurobehavioral Addendum
- Entry 43: Why Does It Sound Like a War Metaphor?
- Entry 44: Forensic Commentary on Racialized and Fetishizing Language in “Hidden Like Rice”
- Entry 45: Public Misuse of Former Academic Affiliation
- Entry 46: The Two Things That Didn’t Leave a Bad Impression
- Entry 47: When Affection is Just an Alibi (A Bundy-Inspired Reflection)
- Entry 48: Humbert, Lolita, and the Fetish of Fragility
- Entry 49: The Fetish of Smallness as Symbolic Violence
- Entry 50: Motif Risk Analysis
- Entry 52: Can an Abuser Be a Good Father?
- Entry 53: Who Protects the Children?
- Entry 54: From Blackmail to Children
- Entry 55: A Letter I’ll Never Send
- Entry 56: Outc(L)assed - Critical Race Analysis
- Entry 57: Forensic Breakdown: “A Voidance” by Johnston
- Entry 58: Johnston, Who Raised You?
- Entry 59: Public Financial Terms & Narrative Conditions
- Entry 60: What Kind of Future Do You Think Awaits You?
- Entry 61: Why I Believe He Has No Real PR or Legal Team
- Entry 62: Why I Can Legally (and Ethically) Call You a Pathetic Pig
- Entry 63: Tell Me You’re a Pathetic Pig Without Telling Me You’re a Pathetic Pig
- Entry 65: Did Your Mother Teach You To Speak Like This?
- Entry 66: Nobody Cares Anyway
- Reflection: The Miscalculation
(More entries coming soon)
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